Sunday 25 March 2012

A bit of baking and a bad mood

Let me just state a very simple fact that I have learned today....

Baking + A Bad Mood = Guaranteed Disaster!!

I have an absolutely awful day, stress galore and just a tad moody and upset and it hasn't been progressing well. It's 11pm at night and I feel like bed is miles away from me, Im just so strung out! I do have herbal sleep assist pills that I can take but I try not to unless things are unbearable. I guess that's the fun of living with anxiety and depression! But anyway...

So I decided this afternoon after doing a bit of pinterest perusing (how neat is that word?) that I was going to make cupcakes. I wanted to make a few to share with our neighbours who I think are a bit shy, but seem very kind so they're sort of an ice breaker. I hope they like cake! So I decided I wanted vanilla bite sized cupcakes with tiffany blue icing, silver cachous and handmade seashell ganache chocolates on top... and thankfully despite the mood issues most of them turned out wonderfully and just how I had pictured! Probably a bit too over the top for their purpose, but inspiration must be made reality when the urge takes you!


Though of course, some kept falling over due to being a tad top heavy and the icing got ruined, and the chocolates wouldnt come out of their moulds despite a lot of frustrating banging on the bench (which probably annoyed my poor neighbours as we share a wall)...and one cupcake MIGHT have been flung at high velocity at the walls at some stage leaving a very artistic blue spatter on my white walls. Luckily at that point my wonderful husband came to the rescue and took over for me, while I very childishly stormed off to hide in our room and brood on my frustrations. And so here I am now! Reflecting on my terrible day and crankiness (is that a word?). It wasn't ALLLL that bad though, parts were good! For example I got hooked to watching a series called 'Spaced' which stars two of my all time favs Nick Frost and Simon Pegg, and I am absolutely loving it! And I also discovered that my strawberries which I may have forgotton about for a few weeks, and were looking very brown and 'crunchy' got some good watering yesterday and low and behold they have bounced back!! They're sprouting new leaves and going for gold the little fighters! They are very understanding of my lack of garden experience I think! Ohh, I almost forgot! My EXTREMELY naughty foxy decided he was going to make a load of havoc today and did everything he could to annoy me including ripping open a rubbish bag we had yet to take out and spreading it's contents all over my newly vacuumed loungeroom floor!! The little devil got kicked outside on his chain for a few hours after that, but then after dark fell we fell sorry for him and gave in to his whimpering and let him back in. He's been very sheepish since then, I think the lesson finally sank in!

I realised also that I am a bit behind in my 'Journey of Autumn' posts, I have a few for the coming days already drafted (you'll love them!) but all the trees turn so fast here that I'm going to need to work fast these next few days and get some snaps before there's no leaves left!! Just a note here...while Autumn in Armidale is just lovely, once Winter kicks in the place looks a bit like Russian winter. Bleak, grey and not a leaf to be seen! And did I mention FREEZING! It seriously baffles me as to why it doesn't snow here more often! I have some lovely paintings to show you, a few songs I've found (not mine, good Lord you don't want to hear me sing!) and there may be a short story in the making too.

So now that I have made my confessions and thankfully picked up on the bright sides of today, and started to ramble I definately think it is time for bed!

6 comments:

  1. I wish I had 1/4 of your craftiness!! Those look A MAZE ING!! ;)

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    1. Thankyou Ronni! They tasted pretty darn good too! All of them got eaten in less than 24 hours!

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  2. I agree with Grandma Juice! I would love to be as artistic as you! Maybe one day when I am better off I will buy some books and get everything I need. I would love to find out some cool things to try, like your cupcakes, one day!

    Also, I defiantly know how depression and anxiety can affect a person. I am dealing with a bad anxiety disorder everyday. If you ever want to talk to someone I am here for you!

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    1. Thankyou for your support :) Craft and baking means I dont have to get tongue tied trying to talk to people haha But I spose I can't hide away with my cupcakes and sewing machine forever!

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  3. They look yummy! Mine would not turn out nearly as cute! I have suffered from chronic depression all my life so I do understand and it's not fun to deal with.

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    1. They were delish! I think I'm going to make cream cheese icing for everything from now on!

      I have had depression and anxiety for a few years now, I've been told that unfortunately it will continue to occur for the rest of my life so Im constantly on the lookout for new ways to deal with it and for some reason at the moment, baking gives me the confidence boost I need to get through :) The only problem with that is it also give my weight a boost! haha

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Thanks a bunch of bananas for the comments lovelies! I sure do appreciate it you spunky thing you :o)